Whats The Meaning Of Life !!!!

Don't let people drive you crazy when you know it's in walking distance.

Monday, August 22, 2005

will be out for a while

i will be out for a while. not in a mood to blog anything coz of the things going around me.. takecare guys will be back soon

Saturday, August 20, 2005

i feel so miserable right now that i feel like commiting suicide and i wish i could do that....but cant leave my parents alone...i just dont know wat to do..
i just know nothing ...................know nothing .......nothing at all.....

Thursday, August 18, 2005

And I'm Off...

Last Day at Accenture today...1 yr and 1 month...to hopefully quit my job. Wish me luck and I hope I don't cry too much- I tend to be a wimp and I feel like I am disappointing people and not following through with a commitment I made and just a ton of other issues. GRRRROWL
well this was my farewell mail to my friends and collegues:

Hi All,
I am sure you all must be surprised to see my mail in your inbox.

Well, this mail is regarding my farewell to you all. Today would be my last working day at Accenture.
I personally wanted to thank you all for being there for me and helping out with problems related to work or personal. It was wonderful knowing you knowing you all in this journey of 1 yr and 1 month at Accenture. Learnt a lot from you all in this duration and would carry forward all the learnings throughout my life.

Once again a sincere thanks to all of you and I wont be available anymore on my accenture.com email id. For further communications please feel free to

Mail me : kiranmayi.vr@gmail.com
IM me : kiranmayi_vr@yahoo.com

Thanks and Regards,

Kiranmayi V R
Accenture , Bangalore

will miss u the ones close to my heart ...

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Mystery @ home or its in my mind

I wonder if anything crazy and unusual is going on in the sky? Like, what's it like to be an astronaut in a well-built space ship? Ah, it must be the coolest thing in the world to enter the atmosphere at high speeds in a well-designed machine...
Well dont worry i didnt see a UFO in the sky or a ghost at my home. Was just kinda feeling to all weird about myself,was thinking wat an emotional fool am i. Y do i get attached to ppl so easily even after knowing the fact that there is no one for u in this world right now except ur parents and once they r not there u r all alone in this world. Ur parents who have given birth to u , who have taught u how to walk, those first few entangled steps. Clean ur bruises when u fall. They wait for u to say those first words" ma" or "papa". Take to the school on ur first day and tell u "this is the first step for u to face the world" . Help u in doing ur home work, whack u for not getting good scores. PTA's , Annual school functions, College, Teachers, Professors, Grades, Professional courses-- at the end they want u to see well settled in life, so that they can leave this world in peace with the assurance that " Yes our child is independent now and knows the world and can take care of herself in this cruel world where emotions dont have any value"
Awesome, ain't it but true.
Throughout my life, being the only child have been pampered and protected a lot. Everytime anything goes wrong, i know mom and dad are there for me. Its not only me alone who goes through all this but a middle class average child go's through the same thing.
Being an army officers child i have always travelled throughout my life, went to so many schools, met so many ppl. In school i never had any good friends, coz i was a bit reserved and a shy girl in those days and by the time i used to make some good friends it used to be time to leave the city and go to a new place. Made some friends in mysore where i lived for 5 yrs but now everyone is busy in their own world, not in touch with many ppl now.
Joined JNC in Bangalore, sick college..trust me, the day i joined the place i wanted to leave it. Entire life i have studied in a co-ed school or college and now all of a sudden join a college which has got only girls.. man its a college life that i going through and the sadest paet was all the girls in my class were all aunty type... lol.. so serious or so damn homely... not my kind i guess, those who know me well will know wat my kind is .. lol..
Started working soon after graduating, the independence that u get once u start working is in total an absolutely different feeling. More friends, freaking out more, shopping, partying, jokes and so on... though i dont party much but love to go around with friends and lots of shopping.
Had worked with DELL and now with Accenture. 19th is my last day at work in Accenture.
Havent planned anything wat i would be doing next. Have MBA going on in mind and maybe a new job too. . i dont know. just want to be out of everything for a while and sit at home i guess..
But finally in the end, i have to be with my parents. Yesterday mom got a bit senti over the phone with me while i was speaking to her. My parents are out of town. I wondered wat would be their life once i get married and leave my home. I know they would miss me a lot and i would do the same.
This one's for u mom and dad..
You were always there
to help me
You were always there
to guide me
You were always there
to laugh with me
You were always there
to cry with me
But most important
you were always there
to love me
and I want to assure you that
I am always here
to love you

Monday, August 15, 2005

Long time no bloggin ``

Had been out from bloggin since 10th august..Was Dj's brother's wedding on 11th and 12th, was on leave since 11th august.. enjoyed the wedding. Tripti, abu and myself went for the wedding. Dj and his family loved the gift that we gave the couple.
Wasnt well on 12th.. was at home... 13th and 14th was out shopping with friends family and came to know new things about changes that might happen in my life.. cant tell u guys anything now but soon will let u all know about it.
15th august was Independence day so Holiday...
One of our close family friends in hyd got shot by naxalites. he was an MLA . Mom and dad have left for hyderabad today morning for the funeral.. might get back in a day or two.
Wat else... the previous post that i put in today were the ones i wrote during these 5 days, just didnt have time to post them here.... nothing much from my end.. so far the day is going on fine. lets c wats new for the day down the lane.. take care guys..

My Simple Rules

Being me. How?

* Love your parents, theyre the most perfect human being on earth.
* Your brothers are youre heroes, they'll kill your ex's if you want them too.
* Don't make friends with girls, theyre just emotionals and stupid.
* Guy friends are cool and they will help you no matter what. Y? u know it better.
* Don't wear coloured contact lenses.
* Don't try to dress like anyone else you know, like they're your bestfriends or something.
* Never ever ever ever buys imitation. Bags especially. Pirated dvd's or games are exceptable. Putting imitations on your skins

will just ruined your whole image.
* Don't sing in the car if you don't know them well. You will sound and look stupid.
* Never wear or borrow someone else's clothes and be proud wearing them. Thats just aren't cool.
* Shut your mouth up when you dont understand what people's saying. Don't jump into that conversation and appear, you

know brain-less.
* Remember, by studying or reading each day will make you smarter in any ways.
* Talk to people and always mix around. Staying in one group and feel proud of it will bring you to the no-where-land. Been

* Don't buy stuff that youre not gona wear or use. Waste money.
* Don't always think youre perfect cause youre not.
* Flirt with whoever you want, date as many. Stop when you found the right one. It feels really good.
* Never be proud of your parents or brother's money. They might be rich, but you have nothing.
* Education is really important.
* Never talk to your boyfriend about your ex's. Everyone is a different series, theres no need to compare. I just never learn!
* Buy a car if you hates borrowing others. Maybe, thats about pride. Or just being egotistical.
* Your ex's doen't matter to you anymore. But your boyfriend ex's. Yes, they matters. And remember, youre always better,

smarter, and prettier than them!
* Cry if you want to. No point trying to act tough when you're not
* Missing someone all the time and makes you sad is normal. Being sad and not knowing why is just freaking scary.
* Don't buy cheap clothes.
* Always appear elegant. Even socks matters.
* Don't talk too much when you dont know what youre saying. stop before you say something irrelevent.

Hmm, lucky I managed to stop there. Was going to start talking dumb like cook when youre hungry or sleep when you're


Perhaps, I look too high on my self. Or maybe, I think everyone should live like me. The truth is, nobody should live like

anybody else. They should live like themselves. Thats how it will work. And always happy with what you have.

Did I mention that not to go out with Mallu guys? Erm.. better listen to me.
(Dont listen to me!)

What Age Will You Die?

You Will Die at Age 70


You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...

And how you'll die as well.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Everyday Life

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they are meant to be there, they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are and who you want to become.
You never know who these people might be: your neighbor, child, long lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger who, when you lock your eyes with them, you know at that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.
And sometimes things happen to you and at the time they seem painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential strength, willpower, or heart. Everything happens for a reason.

Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whether they be events, illness or relationships, life would be a smooth paved straight road to nowhere, safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.
The people you meet who affect your life and the successes and downfalls you experience create who you are, and even the bad experiences can be learned from, in fact they are probably the poignant and important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart..If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you would
have never seen or felt without them.
Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.
Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen, let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high.. Hold your head up because you have every right to.

Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself. For if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you either. You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life, and then go out and live it!

Monday, August 08, 2005

Feel different and bad about the past !!

i am kinda feeling low today. Did something in past few months coz of which it is just eating me away from within. Cant tell it here, though blogs are supposed to be having all what u actually want to say. but then......I dont know yaar.. i just feel different..
in the past few months i have done something which i feel was not right.. i shouldnt have done it probably.. but then ...... aaa i dont know kinda confused.. miserable... dejected.. scared.. sick...happy.. lonely.. dont know ... feel something something

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Missing U From My Heart ~

When you are gone
I feel so alone
I miss you dear
when you are not here

You make my day
Like when the sun shines in May
I need to see your smile
and I wish I could see it more then just once in a while

You are such delight
and add joy to my nights
I want you to know what you mean to me
and oh.. I hope that you can see

My heart is missing you
and I wonder... do you miss me to?
I hope that you do
because I know I miss you!!

I always hope you are ok, and nothing is wrong
When will I see you again.. oh I hope it won't be long!
I need to know that you care
and that no matter what you will always be there

Remember this is for you, my friend
and to you I will send
So keep it close to you heart
and if you do, we will never part.

My heart is missing you!!

Friday, August 05, 2005

i hate this i just HATEEEE IT !!!!!!!!

guess what ?? the worst thing a person can think before going to sleep....
- my new shift from now is from 4am to 1pm....tht is early morning...
-slogged in this company for a yr with the same damn shift of 7pm to 4am which always use to extended and always and every single damn day used to lose sleep coz of work and now .. the sleep whatevr we used to get that is also lost now.....
-good good good i am leaving this company, cant take it anymore. and my manager also knows this..yeah yeah i know i am not supposed to talk about my professional life or about a particular company on blogs.. but cant help it......cant i ever get a decent morning shift from 9am to 6pm ever ?? Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y
i serioulsy cant tell u guys how angry i am right... if my manager comes now in fron of me probably i would KILL HIM..........KILL HIM........
i want u to read this Mr Manager... READ..

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Again!! Another friend of mine leaves me behind. As if I don’t exist anymore. Once a friend is finished telling me their problems, bitching about whomever did what to them-boom. I’m gone. From this day forward I will no longer care about another person’s feelings. Sorry to be so harsh, but it’s a must.

I’m tired of watching people go on about their lives, happy go lucky, not a care in the world, while no matter how hard I try nothing seems to work out for me. One break in life is all I ask for. One. One small hole I can crawl through and leave the past behind. I must have been a horrible person in a past life and I’m being punished in this one. No, I’m not saying my life has been more difficult than others. One can’t compare his or her life to another’s life. Life events happen on an individual basis. I wont either say that my life has been hard for me. Yet, no one gets it. No one gets me because no one has stuck around in my life long enough to find out what really makes me tick and what I really feel and believe.

Strange !!!

If there is such a place. I’ve been having strange dreams lately-nothing scary, I rarely have nightmares-just odd dreams. I sort of like them. I have dreams I can’t even begin to explain to others. Oh well. The results of an over-active imagination I suppose. Anyhow folks, I’m off to the land of strange dreams.
-Feeling dull today, have fever and cold.
-No mood to work
-Will be on leave today, but then manager tells me to come to work.. i am not gonna come.
-Abu is pissed off with tripti's behaviour in regards to her colege function. He is just too possesive about her. I guess even i am the same when it comes to my Jaan.
-Spoke to Jaan today, he inivited abu, tripti and me for his brothers' wedding, i really dont know if i would be able to go or not.
-I wanna go home and sleep.. :(

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Hectic Tiring Sick Happy Weekend !!

Hey guys, how have u all been.
Beginning of a new month and hope things this month go on great.
*Had my MBA exam on sunday, scored wonderful marks-- 82% , something which was unexpected .. lol..
*Had a very bad cold and fever soon after the exam, guess out of sheer joy..lol..
*Next day mom wasnt keeping well.
* Was supposed to be at work on sunday and monday too, but dindt inform my manager about it and royally bunked office. Now i am shit scared to even go and talk to the manager.
*Two of my good collugues have left work. Clive has gone back to Goa { hometown} coz of some personal problems and Kiran has gone to Vizag for a long vacation after which he would come and resign.
*Got a bit carried away and senti on saturday coz i wont be able to meet these guys again in office. Clive ofcourse is on goa... and Kiran will be back after i leave this office, my last working day 15th Aug 2005.
* All i can say as the title for this post is .. was Hectic Tiring Sick Happy Weekend !!
-Hectic coz of the exams and mom not keeping well
-Tiring coz of the exam and me not being well and later mom too..
-Sick coz of the exams and me not keeping well
-Happy coz of the great scores in the exam

*one of my friends complained that my blog has a few high fundoo words which are above his reach so i promised him that this post onwards will be using simple words.. lol...