Lonely 2!!!

My friends abu and tripti have gone out woth their other friends to goa...10th june is her b'day...Abu's b'day was on 25th may and he wasnt here.. tripti and myself had decided to have a surprise party for him..ofcourse he stays in hyd.. but this guy comes down to bangalore meet tripti. he wanted to be here on her b'day on 10th june. Tripti told him that she wanted her b'day to be special so she gave us the idea of going to Goa this weekend or before that..
she asked me.. i was all set and ready but waiting for another friend's anwser.. but that friend of mine said no.. so i also dropped out the plan.. and even i felt that it would be humid in goa too at this season...
though i really had some good plans for their b'days but now they have left me all alone here... in bangalore and have gone to goa....
I have never been to goa before ever in my life and want to go there once before i get married..Just can say that i want to live my life in those 2-3 days.. I am not saying that i will do anything that i am not supposed to.. no boozing and stuff... i just want to play in the water... see the sunset... think of the beautiful days in my life all alone.. just want to be alone for a while and think about the things that i have done in life.. what i want to do and what i always wanted..
Probably can say...that i want to be alone at the same time be with that one person whom i love the most.... and also live life to the fullest in those 2-3 days...
I am missing abu and tripti a lot.. they left today and i feel sick by 7pm...
have a bad headache.. cold..fever throat pain..body pains.. sleepy...and i feel so weak...
i just feel like going for a holiday :(
Oh god plz do some miracle where in even i can go for a holiday if not to goa atleast to ooty.. plzzz :(
i just feel so alone..